You’re always running around with everyone else but me;
You’re such a catastrophe.
But hold on, you’ve been running for oh so long,
and soon I’ll be gone.

You’ve got to build it up and then break down.
Give it a taste and drop your jaw to the ground,
then you’ll know what to do;
And we’ll pick it up,
pick it up and give it right back to you.

Save your breath and get down with me.
I never thought it would be this easy
to spread you like a disease.
In this heat, you’ll be sweating out your dignity.
You’ll always be such a catastrophe.
You’re making a list of all you’re so called “big plans”
and I’m really having trouble
‘cause it’s longer than the stretch of my attention span…
…Wait, what were we talking about again?

You’ve got to build it up and then break down.
Give it a taste and drop your jaw to the ground,
then you’ll know what to do;
And we’ll pick it up,
pick it up and give it right back to you.
Save your breath and get down with me.
I never thought it would be this easy
to spread you like a disease.
In this heat, you’ll be sweating out your dignity.
You’ll always be such a catastrophe.

And how about yourself?
Do you have what it takes
to raise the stakes and show
that you have it in you to just pick up and go.
Give me a reason just to see things through
untill the end because I’m on to you.
I’m going to need a shovel to dig myself out of this one.

i hate being sick. ugh. its so fucking…its just sucky. im so sick, i cant even think of something clever to say for how much it sucks. i barely have a voice, my throat hurts, and my nose is plugged. shoot me. and to add on to the wonderfulness of today, i got paid, but i only made enough to pay my bills. i only have 9 dollars left over till next pay day. fuuuck my life. on the plus side, i have a new boyfriend. i dont think we are both in the same place, though, but im keeping my head up. he is really nice and quite the cutie. plus, mom likes him. thats always a bonus. my bff’s think he’s a big weirdo creep, but they never like the guys i like, anyways. so whatever. i just wish everything would go right for me for once. it started to look up for a while, but then everytime i get happy about something, the world is like “woah woah. jessica is smiling. fuck that shit.”, and then the world rains crap on me. just let me smile, world. i need it. :-(

can we take the streets? ‘cause theres a horrible crash. standing on the highway, a girl and her dad. would you say yeah? “its far too much for me. its far too fast of scenery. but, your voice…” your lips are moving words. i cannot breach the noise. just remember always move fast. we know you. we own you. go home, leave me at the door. we can stay outside your house and just wait for the morning. well i heard you cant stay too long; the mornings got you worried. the sun holds a sea of troubles and an early drive away. “so, i guess i’ll just stay for a while. i guess you knew it from how i smiled”. theres no hurry. we’re more like a fucking nursery than a beautiful trail. just remember always move fast. we know you. we own you. go home. leave me at the door. we can stay outside your house and just wait for the morning. ‘cause ive seen your sadness grow, and it swallows these days until it hurts to breathe. she whispers “thanks for your time tonight, but you are not awake yet. you are not awake, i swear.” she screams “its all been in your dreams with nothing tangable; the girl, the house, this highway. your mind made it real. just remember always move fast…”