this origami dream is beautiful

2 - my self esteem is kind of weird. i don’t have any issues about my looks for the most part. sometimes i wish i was a little skinnier, but most days, i don’t mind my weight. i do have a lot of issues with my life, though. like, everything most girls have issues with, like their personalities or their looks, i feel great about. i’m funny and i’m smart and i’m cute as fuck. i question my ability to make anything of myself.

14 - he’s short, has a big nose, big lips, beautiful honey brown eyes, a super obnoxious yet contagious laugh, a hairy asscrack, is smart and easy to talk to, loves video games and scary movies, and has a nice pee pee. he likes going for walks at night and in the rain, and he really likes chicken. his favorite beer is guiness and he drinks his mixed drinks 60% booze/40% mixer. he likes neck rubs, back scratches, and foot kisses. he is a cuddler and likes to spoon, but sometimes likes being the little spoon. he wakes me up almost every morning i sleep by him by kissing the back of my neck and hugging me tight. he still thinks farts are funny. he bites when he wrestles. he talks to me while he pees, but he gets mad if i’m anywhere near the bathroom when he poops. he reads my cosmo magazines and tells me what stuff he thinks is bogus or not. he told me he wants to read a book because he’s never read a full chapter book. he works for pepsi, but he loves drinking coke. his best friends are a tall girl that lives on the west coast and his 14 year old nephew. he makes fun of the way i look a lot so he has an excuse to tell me i’m pretty when he apologizes. he likes a lot more music than i ever gave him credit for. he does a lot for me and i really appreciate him. he has my heart and he probably will forever. =-]

11 - today…i don’t really know. i hung out with jonah this morning and this afternoon, and i imagine the rest of my day will consist of watching scary movies and hanging around my house.

20 - i haven’t wished at 11:11 since i broke up with my ex, bobby. our anniversary was 11/11, so whenever i caught 11:11, i wished for us to stay happy together. i’d feel weird wishing for something else now.

LISA YOU ALWAYS ASK ME THE SAME QUESTION DAMNIT. now i have to try to think of a terrible thing that i haven’t shared before.

uh, this one time in high school, my friend and i were going to a party and i said i’d DD even though i didn’t have my license. we got there, she had a shot and threw up because of how it tasted, and then decided to not to drink and said that i could. i then got SUPER drunk, went into a bedroom and made out with a pile of people (literally, it was a pile of like 5 people making out in this bed and i just joined in), then i screamed at my friend when she wanted to leave. after a little bit, we left, but i buckled myself in all three seat belts in the back seat, then screamed at her whenever the song on the radio changed, because every song was my favorite song. when we got back to my house, she walked me to the bathroom, and i made her sit with me while i simultaneously shit and puked in my toilet and sink, missing both the toilet and the sink at times. she got revenge by assisting me in my drunk phone calls for the night, though. i called a dude i liked and told him he probably wouldn’t date me because he had a tiny dick. SMOOTH.